This is me. *+*JIELIN*+* I guess i love to take photo. Wahaha. Hahaz. LOL. I'm crazy. Juz want to keep laughing to keep myself happy. Alot of unhappy things happen and i'm trying to overcome them by myself. Not troubling anyone. It is time for me to be more independent as no one for me to depend on anymore. I know dere is always my 2 KORS 3 DA JIE 9 BEST FRENS.. But i cannot always rely on them. I'm missing them all now. Get to see KAI NI CLARICE REGINA ESMOND and CECILIA tml. Get to see JOSEPHINE XUELING HANLEE FENGLING CECILIA JINGWEI NELSON and YIXIN. This weekend will be a gathering time. *+*MUACK*+* hahaz. Talk tml ba. TataZ~

wEeE. Today is such a happening day man! First in da morning i took da GOM test. Erm. I gt 23. Hahaz. Then we watched da pap smear video. EwWwW. Disgusting sia. Hahaz. By dat time it is already 9.50am. And there was a talk at 10am. So da nurse allow us to go for break for 10 mintues. After dat we went back to da Room and da nurse in charge told us abt da foods dat baby takes. So after dat we proceed to outside Room 27. And we started to give out phamplet to da parents dere. Da nurse only tok in Chinese but there was quite a few other races of family. So we decide to translate and tell those parents abt the thingy. Hahaz. Then DR RONNIE came. The talk end abt 10.35. DR RONNIE tell us to go tearoom. So we g lo. Actually da purpose of him gg is to check our uniform but we end up toking abt lots of thing and guess wad?? Our aap result is coming out soon! This weekend. He actually gt say how much i gt la. But i dunno whther is true anot. So better wait till result come out lo. After toking with him it was 11.45am. Hahaz. And dere was another talk at 12.15. So i only stay in my room for half an hour only. Hahaz. After lunch, i went to Room 10 Dressing.ESTHER was beside my room and we discovered dat Room 10-13 is connected so we were running ard da places. Hahaz. And i actually got to do tepid sponging for a little gal. Actually still gt alot de. But cannot say cuz is pple de Private thingy. Den tml me and ESTHER same at da Room 10-13. So i guess it will be a fun day!! Hahaz. *+*HAIZ*+* better stop blogging or i will tok abt unhappy things again. Tml gg to my DA JIE de birthday. Looking forward to it as i miss my HSN darlings very much. Tataz~

Decide to come here to blog before resting. Mention earlier in da previous post dat i'm not in such a gd mood. Really. Sitting in bus 176 brought me back lots of memories dat i had. I think i hate West Mall and Wesy Mall outside dat bus stop. Especially dat bus stop. It brought so much memories. Bad and gd ones. I actually have tears in my eyes when sitting in tat bus. In my whole 17 yrs(till now lah) and i've to know two guys living in BB. One which i trusted so much but betray me. the other one dun feel like saying . Sometimes i really ask myself wad is da point for falling so deep when i know we cannot be tgt. But no matter how hard i try to take back feelings it will juz come back. I really sick and tired le. My body is not dat gd to begin with. My studies also. I really cant cope with heartbreaks anymore. I only ask to be loved. Is it dat hard. I give more den i take. Is not dat i ask for fairness is tis kind of things. Although most of the times i will be crazy and happy but most of the times i'm not in da inside. I juz wan someone to know me well. When i see couple tgt i will ask myself when can i be like them. U all may think i'm desperate but i really had enough. For goodness sake. I'm not even 17. Yet i found myself waking in da middle of da night having tears in my eyes. I'm suppose to be enjoying lifes. Not crying and sighing in da middle of da night and ask myself where will i be tml. Will someone be missing me right now? I dun think so. forget it. forget everything..........................................

TIRED SIA. Attachment is super tiring but when it came to the end of da day u'll feel a sense of archivement. Today morning i went to Room 26 Developmental Assessment. And wow. The first patient is a pair of TWINS! Hahaz. So cuteeeeeeeeee. Well. I have to stand up for most of the time then when 10 something went for break. After dat went back to da room but no patient so i went to Room 27 Immunisation. Hahaz. CECILIA was inside dat dat room. So we were slacking abt den SABRINA came into our room to tell us to gather at da conference room as dere wil be a talk! Wa. I so happy dat i practically jump out of da room. Den we go find LEONICE and
ESTHER. The talk dat we attended is abt bird flu. And i was dozing off. Hahaz. By da end of the talk is already 12.00 noon. We are suppose to go off at 12.30pm to go to Bukit Batok Polyclinic. So we decided not to go back to our room juz went back to get signature. But when everyone got their signature it is only 12.15 so we decide to go Room 27 to slack. Wa. The staff nurses dere also slacking cuz dere is no patients. Den i played with the weighing machine and had fun. Then we proceed to BB polyclinic. With our uniform. Soon after we reach, my darlings SHILA NICOLE NAQIAH BIDAN also came!! I was so excited dat i hug them lo. Hahaz. Den found dat dere is a guest book so we anxiously look whether our class got sign anot. And yes! My beloved P17 had signed! So we quickly sign also. Hahaz. Den for da next few hours juz slack ard ith them. It make me forget alot of unhappiness. But when i was on my way home in bus 176 i felt lik crying. Alot of memories came back to me. Sian diao lo. Haiz. Sometime i juz cannot control my feeling. It will juz came suddenly. Haiz. *+*I HATE BUS 176*+* no mood to blog anymore. Tataz~

*+*ARGHH*+* Feeling tired. Actually later can go plaza de. Cuz GLENN's birthday den WEIXIANG gg to find him den i wanted to tag along. BUT he juz sms and said maybe not meeting cuz he need to work. Sianz lo. Haiz. Today at polyclinic not too busy and not too free. Hahaz. Went to Room 23-23A. Diabetic Foot Screening and Diabetic Retinal Screening. Manage to help out in some ways la. Quite sianz at first. Then went Room 25 after lunch break. Traveller Vaccination Centre. Got two cases only. Den da nurse dere ask me go Room 26. Development Assessment. It is for children!! Hahaz. Dere so fun till i forget da time! Hahaz. Soon it was time to go home. Den went home alone lo. Haiz. So sianz now. Ntthing to do. But ntthing to blog. Haiz. *+*SOB SOB*+* Gtg. Tataz~

Juz wanted to blog when b4 gg for attachment. I really hope today will be a gd day. I dun wanna do anything dat remind me of him. I had enough. Juz let me rest one day. One day only. Pls dun let me think of him. Haiz. Anyway. Gg to diabetic room this morning. Hope it will be as fun as da Immunisation room. Afternoon gg to...... I forget. Hahaz. Should be Traveller Vaccination Room la. Alot of injection again. K la. It is 6.47am now. I gtg. Tataz~

P.S: I miss everyone.

I'm not gg to post any photos. Juz now tried den cannot den log out den cannot log in again.. Scare me sia. SO if u guys wanna see my "beautiful" photos juz go my friendster. Ok. Today is not so bad a day. I guess. Hahaz. I went woodland polyclinic for my attachment. Afternoon more fun cuz i actually get to learn how to give injection. Hahaz. And i get to see cute babies! Got twins somemore. Hahaz. So happy. K la. Gtg. My dad wan me to help him to do something. Tataz~



P.S:Thanks to all da staff nurses at Woodland Polyclinics!! And i misses my gang and HSN darlings.. *+*SOB*+*

wEeE.. Hahaz. Today is a busy day for me! Woke up at 7am when i slept at 3am. Went to woodland to meet up with VICTOR. He bring me to his church lo. Hahaz. Quite fun actually. But quite malu when he purposely put up his hand and said i'm visiting for da first time. I think i was glaring at him until my eyes wanna pop out and my face muz have blush till lik tomato ba. Den WEIXIANG come and say hi to me. Hmm.. Actually not say hi.. He come and beat my head instead -_-''. Den he introduce to me quite a few people at my age. They are DANIEL and ERIC. Hahaz. Both from Keming Pri de. Then after introducing he walked me to da front gate. And he insist me to use umbrella(drizzling only). Like my dad sia.. Hahaz. So i walked to da interchange and took 187 home. Reach home eat and den sleep for lik half an hour den my mom woke me up to go my ah gong hse. Then eat durians!! So nice!! Hahaz. Then have steamboat. After dat we ate melted ice-cream cake. Cuz my ah ma put in da wrong compartment of da fridge. But it still taste nice. Oreo flavor lei. But look quite disgusting. Shall upload da photos tml!! After finshing da cake i took 190 to orchard to met up with my HSN darlings. Oh man. Saw RUDY. He is okay le. I was so happy dat i forgot i'm not supposed to hug guys anymore and i hug Rudy. He is still da same. Hahaz. And we went to dunno wad place and started to take photos.. hahaz.. shall upload those pic as soon as REGI send me. Then we went home. Oh man. I'm gg to start my attachment in 6 hours and 40 mintues. *+*NERVOUS*+* Hahaz. K la. Gg to stop here and rest le. Muz wake up at 6am. Tataz~


P.S: I'm okay le. Listening to so many people toking i finally be able to face HIM without any feelings dat i'm not suppose to have. Tis actually feel great. I'm looking forward to go out with him and his frens. But i'll not let myself have any not right de feeling for him. Hehez. I can do it because i'm JIELIN...

Hey guys. Juz came back. Hmmm. How is my new blog skin? Hahaz. I think quite nice lei. Hmm.. I feel happier now. Dunno why. I realise Idun really need him le. Yipee. *+*HAPPY*+* Tml gg my ah gong hse. His birthday! Den gg to have dinner with my HSN darlings!! How to feel unhappy with them?? Hahaz. They are so right. I shouldn't live in da past. I should look forward to the future!! I'm juz 17. Still got a long life. I'm sure gg to find someone suitable for me. Hehe. Feeling happy for da first time for da past few days. Love all those who tag me. It really make me feel better. Especially my HSN darlings!! Oh man. Miss da time we had at da chalet. Gg to have attachment on monday!*+*Nervous*+* Anyway.. gtg.. Tataz~

I can't believe when i finally get to sleep i have to dream. This is da most scariest dream i had. I dreamt dat i went to malaysia. Den got flood. But suddenly back in singapore again. Dat is because my soul fly back. But i'm sure i wasnt dead so i tried to ask my family how to get back to my body. But they couldnt see me. Den a monk saw me and teach me to follow "the light". How i know wad light?? But i juz follow any light. And suddenly i find myself back in malaysia. And i woke up. *+*PHEW*+* Tis is da first time i got a dream dat seem so real. I actually woke up in tears!! K la.. I gtg. I gg to JW hse to watch vcds. Tataz~


**I cant believe i can actually write a post without him in it.Hahaz

I can't sleep. Haven been contacting him for one day and i misses him alot alot. Feeling damn useless. I'm so barcardi addicted. Need to drink to forget my sorrows. STUPID. I know. But it helps alot. But bad for my health esp my health sucks alot. I nid barcardi NOW. Pls. If u happen to come across my blog and u're eighteen. Pls kindly buy one barcardi rum for me. Lime flavor. No peach. Too sweet for my taste buds. Or burbon coke also can. It taste nice but my frens dun lik it. Nvm. Juz give me any drinK with ALCOHOL. *+*DEPRESS*+*

Oh man. Juz realise dat i'm making everyone worried for me. Juz created tis blog not long ago and see da tag board. All care and concern from frens who love me. My KOR, CALVIN, NICOLE, LAYPENG,REGI and BIDAN. Felt so loved. But sorry guys. I juz seem cant let go of all tis feelings. I put every thing every memories i had with him into dat box. Maybe i'll be able to open dat box one day feeling happy dat i've liked him. But now i cant do it. I also didnt realise i put up a strong front until i saw those tags. Nicole said dat i lighten everyone's day. Regi said she missed my smile. VICTOR said he never tot shy will appear in my dictionary. *+*WOW*+* But behind all tis i'm nothing. I'm juz a gal with a broken heart waiting for someone to made my heart. But will tis person appear? I doubt so.....................................................

Today went kbox with my fav pals. Cecilia, Phine and Liling. Sang alot of songs. Almost every song remind me of him. I very pathetic right? Went to BP after singing. Went pet shop. I know da staff dere. Cuz of him. Joanna told me dat Glenn told her *** ***** will not one leg step two boats. I knew dat. Should i ask him whether he got feeling for me b4? Feeling so confused. Alot of advice given to me. But all very different. Who should i listen to? Which advise should i use? Feeling so 痛苦. Da purpose of gg Kbox today is to let me not to think of him. But i misses him more. Wanted to msg him but didnt. Joanna told me to stay away from him. But how am i suppose to do dat when da only purpose i enjoy my week is dat i get to see him? Bought a box today. Intending to put all memories with him in dat box. Alot of things. Neoprint. His namecard(-_-''). Da lilo&stitch keychain he gave me. His initial de magnet. Da keychain dat i do for him and me. Alot. Alot. *+*CRY OUT LOUD*+*


I feel dat da distance between me and him is wider. Is dat gd? Idunno. I really dun. I didnt realise dat he is actually afarid to let his gf know dat we went out. Maybe if she know she will not be happy ba. I can't sleep at all. HELP ME. Haiz. Gd morning~

I LOVE HIM ALOT. This is really hard for me to change. My KOR (HONG SHENG) tell me to contiune to like him. Cuz it worth it. Forgetting someone is really hard. And it really hurts alot. It is painful to take out someone from your HEART. But i'm very confused now. He is attached lei. Haiz. So wad should i do? I know i will continue to like but wad type of feeling should i face him? As a fren? As a bro? Hmmmm......... I guess i need to think some more. Dunno still meeting him later for supper ma. He haven call lei. NVM. Tml gg KBOX!! Update tml k. Hahaz. Miss all!! Tataz~


TO HIM: If you happen to come by tis blog pls pretend u didnt see anything.........



Hey. I'm back! Today going to tell you all when is da first time i went out with him. Well. If not wrong it is on 13/4/06 Thursday. That is da day he started work at Cycle And Carriage. We went to watch "8 Below" at West Mall. Jing Wei and his gf is suppose to join us. But dat idoit JingWei fly me aeroplane. So left him, his gf and me rite? But when i reach dere den he tell me his gf never come. SIANZ DIAO. But nvm.. We juz continue to watch da movie. After the movie we was thinking what to eat. Den he say SAKAE. Oh man. Den i tell him i no money to eat so expensive dinner. And guess wad he say? He say TREAT me. Wa. So gd. Hahaz. Then i saw MS PHANG and MRS HO. I so pai seh. Hmmm. My entry so many "den". Hahaz. So after eating we went home lo. Dat is da first time I go out with him alone. Dere is many more to come. Tell u guys next time ba! Tataz~

Finally finish changing everything. K. How should i start. Oh well. Said it earlier tat i know him through LiLing. Hmm. At dat time i didnt really notice him or wad. Juz treat him normal lo. But we start to hang out and chat on da phone so much dat i began to have feelings for him. Actually at first i deny having feelings towrad him. But my dear fren JingWei ask me" U lik *** ***** issit?" It make me realised dat i do. Dat was a few months ago. And now i'm trying to forget him. Sigh. Will elaborate even more on next entry. Tataz.

This blog is actually created to help me to forget ''someone''. Actually i like him only a few months but all my frens know dat i'm a super emotional gal. So i will took me extra long to forget him. Let me briefly explain wad happen. I knew him through Liling. Went out a few times. Talk on the phone a few times. BUT he is attached. So i guess dat its. Will elaborate more next entry.

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