blogging with a heavy heart.
love is really confusing.
when you dont get it, you run after it.
when you get it, you run away from it.

anywayy,
just treasured whatever you have now.
dont regret when you lose it.

i shall go hide under my blanket&cry now.
bye.ciao.tata.




me&cai ting.
(:
sweet gurl.
not like me :P












my bag sit on this winnie fer a few hours! supposely to be my butt.
but i keep sliding down. hahahahas.














my kuku face.
they say i look like malaysian!
whatever luh!












KAWASAKI! hahahahas.
not a clear pic though.
hahahas.
i want a vespa!
random.

okayy.
so i change the background.
damn nice right?
i love this pink vespa.
maybe i can convince my dad to let me take bike lesson.
and ask him to sponser (:

you will be wondering why the hell am i blogging at this hour?
simple.
cos i cant sleep.
lots of thing running thru my mind right now.
and i'm damn confused.

i miss alot of people.
and the past.
blah!
lets not get emo.
i wanna be happy lil gurl.
yupp yupp.

better sleep soon cos i can hear people nagging at me.
anywayy, sch tmr.
sort of looking forward.
been missing sch fer 3 blardy days.
XOXO lil gurl

bye.ciao.tata

okayy. went work on mon.
and blah blah blah.
didnt quite enjoy luh.
sighhh.

anywayy,
what important is after work.
hahahahas.
mr kawasaki come and fetch me from work and go fer supper.
before that must find petrol ar!
i always end up finding petrol station with him.
and the places we end up always the same.
hahahas.

so we go round&round finding petrol station.
FINALLY FOUND ONE!
by the help of an uncle.
(:
and yay.
now can go fast fast.

soooo we went round sembawang.
and go thru this ulu ulu road which is damn cold!
then go supper& chatted.
then gooo home ard 1 am.

reach my house.
he huff-puff.
so i also huff-puff lor.
then chat again.
hahahas ard 4am then go home.

this morning cannot wake up+too tired.
so sleep till 12 plus and went shopping with laypeng.
cousin loves.
(:

only buy one pair of flats, 2 belt, 1 watch and 1 dress
):
need to have more dress.
am becoming more rough.
:P

anywayy.
am hungry.
bye.tata.ciao.

p.s: shall post up my biker gurl photo and kawasaki photo.
look forward!
XOXO jielin

no more lil'ms tortoise.
no more dream.
no more wishes.
nothing.
everything is gone.
now that i know the truth.
sorry for wasting your time.
no more i heart you.

sorry for being sucha bitch to everybody.
sorry for being so self-centred.
sorry for hurting my friends.
sorry for not contacting them.
sorry for not having the courage i used to have.
sorry for being emo.

thanks for being there for me.
thanks for tolerating my bitchiness.
thanks for hearing my nonsensical rants.
thanks for making me laugh.
thanks for being such good friends.
thanks for everything.

after this 2 incidents.
i decide to change. and give up.
i hope everything start anew tomorrow.
anywayy, am just glad dat out of all these shit.
i gain new friends.
and of course. i miss my babes&lovelies.



but dont talk to me now.
emo-ing.SHOO.
will be fine by 12mn.

so shack now.
but still i feel like posting.
hmmm.

ytd.
work is shit.
sort of hate working now.
am gonna quit after CNY.
i need da money babeh.

drink&huff-puff after work with aishah &zhihao.
after that aishah went home.
so zhihao drive me ard with his kawasaki.
woot~
went to damn lot of places.
we even went town&DBL O.
cos i say i wanna see people fight.
hahahahaas.
that is sort of sadist.
and after that sit under my block&chitty chat.
hear alot of story.
and i share mine (:

but somehow.
when i'm with him.
i think of that mr attitude.
i am tired.
tired of making first move.
tired of msging him&not geting a reply.
tired of not talking to him.
somehow i wish we will go back to the past.
anywayy, this is just ranting.
of cos i still heart him (:

anywayy,
i just spend my 4 hr pay on fucking cab.
CCB.
i forget to take my wallet and have to make one big round back.
waste my money sia.
hate hate hate.
i wish i can drive.
):

enough of ranting.
deciding between sleeping & shopping.
am so sleepy.
slept at 6 this morning.
wake up at 9.
blah.
i wanna shop&sleep!

bye.ciao.tata.

i miss msging you.
i miss hanging out and talk.
i miss the way we squeeze in the small counter.
i miss our ''arguement''
in short.
i miss you.
sighhhh


back from work.
decided to skip ns 2 today.
dearest nari msg me like 7 plus whether i'm gg.
and of cos i said no.
and her reply is '' me too!''
how cute. love her luh.
her and her korea stuff which is driving everything crazy.

had my nasi lemak fer lunch.
and off to work.
work is okayy as usual.
and as usual i eat damn lot luh!
had like 5 goreng pisang.
one plate of nasi ayam rendang.
and one plate of kueh teow goreng.
and bandung.
all in 8 hours.
hmmm. and i'm hungry right now.
shall get fries later.

anywayy.
I GOT A NEW TWEE.
woots~
plasma somemore.
lovelovelove
although i dont really watch twee nowadays.
but still twee is important okayy.
shall put a photo up soon.
totally chio luh.

and and and.
my shopping list is sooo long.
and i wanna save fer my bangkok's trip.
YES. I'M GG BANGKOK.
woot~ not confirm yet though.
hahahas.

and i haven bought a single clothe fer CNY.
so shitty shit.
and i start huff puff-ing again.
so depise myself.

trying to decide between clubbing with hilda&babes.
or hang out session with my lovely bros which i haven seen fer @#$% years.
or lepak after work with aishah&zhihao.
or go home and watch my chio tv.
sighh.
the one who i wanna go out with didnt asked.

okayy.
shall end this post.
photo up soon.
i hope.
bye.tata.ciao.
XOXO lil'ms tortoise

further&further
where will we end up?
i heart you ):

yay-ness.
today is the best day of the whole week.
finally finish that fucking nr presentation and we got the highest in class.
yay-ness.

during break,
babes and me went to pizza hut @ west mall.
and i eat damn lot.
i think ard 7 spicy&sweet drumlet.
my beef lagnasa.
and one big bowl of mushroom soup.
and we take our sweet time and slack at there.
had a great chat.
and i'm soooo glad everyone back to their normal self.
no more arguement.
slowly make our way back to sch.
and i actually pay attention in class (:
praise me please. hahahas.

after class, straight chiong to take bus to town.
although many people asked me to take train.
but guess what, i reached ard 6.20
and i'm the 4th to reach.
hahahas.

meet underwear, ma tai& his gf.
walk ard while waiting for the rest.
had dinner and blah.
then shopping!
bought a tee from collage.
with 10% discount as doreen's friend work there.
then sit outside kpool and slack while waiting for movie.
oh ya, finally saw dwayne.
hahahas.

movie is great although half of the time i hid my face behind my bag.
but still, its nice.
after that huff puff and went to take bus.

reached clementi and had this random thought of eating mac.
so we went.
hahahas.
chit chat abit with my da jie da.
and cabbed home.

today,
i'm more me.
talk alot.
laugh alot.
joke alot.
i love this.

anywayy,
gg sleep soon.
i think. class tmr. work tmr. JOOCHIAT NIGHTMARE.
bye.tata.ciao.

dont be sacarstic.
blah.
i heart you.
(:

am so stress up by that stupid/idoit nr.
was crying so badly.
that i eat cup noodle.
and i'm feeling better.
shall contiune.

i miss you alot.
although i just saw you last friday.
and we never talk to each other for so long.
tomorrow.
i shall pluck up my courage and talk to you.
i heart you.
XOXO lil'ms tortoise

cheer up.
i cant help much.
i dont know how to tell you.
i'm going to stand by you.
no matter what happen.
i heart you.
(:
XOXO lil' ms tortoise

done with NR.
yay-ness.
i'm so shacked.
i think i might die soon.
going for break soon.
i want lemon chicken rice.
i think this post is FON.
and i shall end here.

bye.ciao.tata.
XOXO

dued in another 15 hrs.
minus the hr i travel plus getting ready plus lesson plus lunch.
i left only 9 hrs to finish that blardy nr.
totally hate.

but on a brighter note,
after the NR i will be much more free.
i'am gg to drag mr oh-he-is-so-fat to go out with me.
and of course RTRT with cherie and huanying.
and working.
and gg out with mama.
no time to think about other things.
no time to cry.
no time to get emo.

anywayy,
getting back to nr.
please please please.
am so sleepy already. not even half done.

bye.ciao.tata.
XOXO

mr oh-he-is-so-fat drive me to west mall fer coffee bean.
and drive me home.
so sweetttt.
love him luh!
i know he will always be there fer me.
and thanks fer hearing my prob.

bought raspberry cheescake.
not cos i like it.
cos of memories.
still rmb that time.
251207
i know i shock him and the cashier.
kinda funnyy thinking back.
how i wish.

carrot cake and raspberry cheescake.
so different.

anywayy,
i haven even touch nr.
and it is gg to due in another 19 hours.
wish me luck people.
somehow i have a bad feeling abt this.

bye.ciao.tata
XOXO.

yupp yupp.
had a nice family day.
went JE to had a nice brunch.
soooo suai.
seat with a mental disorder auntyy.
boo.
she keep taking our food and my papa keep staring at her.
so scary.
in the end, we changed place.
cos it is spoiling our mood.

i seriously need to get my ass down to work on NR.
boos.
just had a fulll dinner at ah ma's hse.
nice.
i think the next time i see them wil be CNY.
am busy busy busy.

mama say we will be gg bangkok for this year holiday!
RTRTRTRT.
am sooo looking forward to it.
(:

okayy. gg to start on NR.
how great.
pls praise me.
bye.ciao.tata.

要你永远是我的小乌龟
我爱你
每一天

woot~
finish posting the photos.
lots more in my cam though.
shall upload when i feel like it.
hahahahas.

trying to finish my nr.
but i haven even start.
argh. how stress.

sick&sick&sick.
didnt went sch and work.
i have sexy voice.
and my bro is poking fun of me.
taking lots and lots of strepsils.

shall post soon.
and wish me luck fer dat blardy NR.
and wish i will get well soon.
bye.ciao.tata.

and i certainly wish that you will msg me.
(:






babes











school isnt school without them.










picture perfect











cute cake! minnie just for her.
nice nice nice!









oops.
caught in action.
me and rachel trying to nail her down and bash her face!






poor rachel with flu.
















aishah and me.















balloons! HSN ROX.
PUT N69 AS YOUR FIRST CHIOCE NOW!











i love her.
but she doesnt.
sob.









trying to act cute with balloon.




my totally-no-make-up look.
scary isnt it.















no comment. i just like this photo.














how small my eyes!















how fat my cheeks!










my water-rentention-early-in-the-morning look





aishah and my make-up loot.
she is the silky girl's girl.
and i'm theFACEshop's girl.
she got damn lot of make up!











i caught a rainbow on my lecture notes.












glowing











this is what i do in class.
smile prettyy and say cheese.

i'am not putting any hope more.
treating you as a friend and let natural take its course.
not that i'm giving up.
but this is a way of protecting me from your unpredictable emotion.
everytime your mood changes.
i feel so frustrated too.
but i realised this is not helping.
from now on.
whenever you give me attitude.
i shall ignore and walk away.
or just smile.

there was alot of hinting last night.
and i hope you more or less get it.
maybe you're trying to hint me something.
but remember i'm lil' ms tortoise.

i'll still heart you, of course.
but for now. lets take this slowly.
cos i feel that we both are not ready.
(:

anywayy,
am looking forward to the next time i see you.
which i hope is soon.
lovesloves.

had a fun fun day.
celebrated aishah's bday in sch.
photos up soon.
and sorry ay. fer cake bash (:

went fer open house and did some crazy fun things.
babes is loves!
went home and wait and wait.
hahahas.

met him and jolin at bb mrt.
i was late. sorry!
went bugis to meet up and rest.
went pool.
so tempted to huff puff luh.
cos everyone was huff puff-ing.
but well. he dont let me.
so forget it loh.

went pool while waiting for da ge.
then off for steamboat.
and went boat quay for drinkdrink.

alot of things happen-ed.
had a great time with them.
and they really helped me alot.
thanks for being there.

okayy.
i dont have the feel to blog.
shall contiune.
blah.

bye.ciao.tata.

i'm really happy to be just by your side.
i just hope.
that i'm really your 小乌龟
i heart you (:


woot~
everything is alright.
i heart you!

see you later love.

okayy.
post up photos.
(:

miss my lovelies.
and my babes.

btw.
lovelies refer to my nine besties.
babes refer to my clique in poly.

anywayy, i know aishah will not be reading this.
so i can let the secrets out.
bought her present! and minnie mouse cake which cost us a bomb.
hope she will be happy.
photos tmr!
thats for sure.

sometime its really confusing abt the people we hang out with.
but i know no matter what our bond stay strong.
yupp. cheers to friendship.
hahahas.
how orbiang!

anywayy,
beauty sleep soon.
big day tmr (:
and looong day.
and my dressing table will be here tmr!
thanks to mama.
hugshugs.

okayy.
i shall sleep soon.
blahblahblah.

bye.tata.ciao.

yay-ness.
finally i can see youuu.





how attitude.
[little ms tortoise*little mr attitude]















how blur!
[change phone luh lovely]










dont let her near the camera.
she will cut away ur face.












i tend to act dumb sometime.









oops. sorry ayy. cut ur face.


anywayy, I HAD A BLAST WITH THEM.







our spastic face
[azri&jielin]











the oh-i-am-so-stress face
[deepan&jielin]














the lovely who is always there for me.
loves`








where are you looking?
[little mr attitude]





she is getting prettier!
[envious]












she is forever pretty.
[happy couple with mr aaron]












my lovelies!
not all present though.
misses*PHINE.XUELING.
FENGLING.NELSON.JINGWEI








they are getting prettier too!
[envious lots!]

oh gosh.
seriously.
i'm so dead.
haven touch on nr!
at least i finished my part on ns 2.
and pharmacology.

nr nr nr nr.
so dead luh.
hmmm.
i shall start on my individual tmr.
yes sa.
when finish individual then i shall be free!

loves.

yupp yupp.
just back.
had a full dinner just now with yeanling.
had ichiban sushi again.
yupp. twice in a week.
getting addicted to their oh-so-delicious terriyaki salmon.
yeanling had their ichiban bento. which taste great too.

almost finish with ns2.
and left nr. which is terrible.
haven even start.
individual also.
i wanna cry.

anywayy, like i said.
i shall chiong fer the week and enjoy my weekend.

bye.ciao.tata

i'm jealous.
very jealous.
i wanted to tell you i dont mind even if we try out.
but i guess i'm too chicken.
i cant be like her.
even if i change to her attitude i will not be like me anymore.
i'm sorry. but i still like you.

lalala.
i heart my new belt.
(: finally came today.
i heard mrs postman shouting my name.
didnt went sch today.
hee. sort of overslept.
there goes my nsl quiz.

anywayy,
had a great chat last night.
little ms tortoise.
(: lovelovelove.
anywayy, steamboat on fri!
damn looking forward to it.
great & fun people to hang out with.

should be rushing fer my project now.
but cant help sidetracking abit.
i shall work hard for this few days and enjoy myself on fri!
bye.ciao.tata.

i cant help.
but i think i like you even more now.
blah!

soo i spend a great day with my family.
too great (:
went ichiban sushi and i had salmon terriyaki.
and we bought rubik's cube.
hahahas. had fun!

this few days aint that great.
but i had to say i quite did well fer my pharm retest.
i think so.
hahahhas.

work aint that great either.
people who are close aint close anymore.
sighh. i did miss da time we went fer supper and countdowns.
the time we fly paper aeroplane in our shop.
the time we celebrate mr attitude's bday in shop.
the time we hang out after work.
the time everyone of us went huff puff tgt.
the time we make fun of kodak gurl[oops]
every memory is so precious.
but its gone.
but i still everyone can make it fer aishah's bday celebration.

love life aint great either.
not to put anymore hopes.
my DA GE[jack] agrees.
thanks fer being on my side & cheer me up.
but i cant do it yet.
i shall try (:
thats me.

school is driving me crazy with all those close deadlines fer projects.
but luckily with my lovely babes.
time pass quickly.
thanks fer cursing me with COPD.
i'm quitting huff puff.

and i really miss my lovelies.
the last time we all meet is dunno how many @#$% months ago.
CNY people.
we shall gather during CNY period.
loves&miss.

am really hooked onto online shopping.
cant wait fer them to arrive.
mr postman!!
spend like there is no ending.
and its also like how many @#$% years since i club.
i'm lazy.
hahahas.

anywayy, shall go bath now.
sch start at 8 tmr.
how pathetic ):
bye.ciao.tata


i think i still like you.
okayy. whatever.

stop stop stop

miss the way we work in that damn small counter.

miss the way you made the stupid face which i always do.

miss your laughters.

miss the way you say GOT PROB AR?[abit bian tai]

miss the 'argument' we had.

shld be studying.
but i'm happily shopping online.
killl me plss.

insomia
mind is all about antihistamines.histamines.
antagonist.
all these info is driving me crazy.

sigh.
i feel so affected.
okayy luh.
like wdv.
i'm talking rubbish again.
this is so trashy.
feel like crying.
i'm emo.
hahahas. cos i know a emo ranger.
RANDOM!

i want want want.
longchamp's le pliage in navy blue or pharma.
urghh.
i'm having a huge crush on it.
so nice.
huanying luh.
tempt me.
tsktsk.

am studying now.
yupp. you hear me.
cos i bloody fail my pharmacology.
[go ahead&laugh, you childish people]
re-test on fri.
extra lesson tmr.
:(
it means i will need my huff puff more.

yay-ness.
mama just told me.
we might be going on a holiday!
i dont mind gg china again.
so cheena!
but its nice. love the scenery.
i love gg holidays with mama&papa.
cos they will pay fer my expenses.
hahahahas. but its good to spend time with them.

schedule is all full fer the month of JAN.
have to make time out fer zhonghao and aishah birthday.
and today is my prettyy blissfully-in-love LILING's b'day.
LOVESLOVES.
happy 19th b'day my dearest.

cant wait fer CNY.
the goodies to eat.
the ANGBAOS to take.
the new clothes to wear.
hahahas.

alright.
this post is so full of random-ness.
gg to sleep soon.
blah.

bye.ciao.tata.

★JIELIN

i wish time will reverse back to 010108.

the stupid situation happen again.
and it has worsen.
received your msg yesterday.
and guess what brillant thing i did?

i cried.
how stupid can i get?
crying just cos you msg me?
i think aishah had the shock of her life.

tried everything that is possible to close up the gap we had.
and its not working.
i dont want.
i dont want to stop here.

somehow i wish i never knew you.
somehow i wish i can just forget everything.
somehow i just cant.




HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVELIES.
well. i totally love my countdown this year.
spend it with mr attitude.
:)
we love making each other pissed.

well. life was hectic.
work. work.chalet.sch.
went to mr attitude's class chalet by his vroom vroom.
omfg. how scary. my first time leh.
had fun anywayy.
went home 6 plus with his vroom vroom again.
and it was raining.
and he give me AP when we reach home.
he c/o i keep moving.
cant blame okayy. i was dozing off luh.
but he was sweet enough to offer to buy mac when i c/o i'm hungry
and it was raining.

been hanging with him too much until i think i gt AP.
boos.
well.
life shld be back to normal soon.
:)
still in holiday mood though.
and i think i need smoking cessation.
blah.

off to work soon.
at joo chiat. how far.
wish i'm working at sunplaza instead.
anywayy, work is not fun nowdays.
mr attitude quitted.
boos. double boos.
but he did ask me to quit and we will find job tgt.
well. shall consider it.

anywayy, mr attitude is clarence.
wahahhahaha.
:)

bye.ciao.tata.

jielinYO.




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