OMFG.
its gg to be 1oct soon.
1st oct = HO HAN LEE BDAY.
1st oct = PAY DAYS!(2 pays somemore, shiok)
1st oct = PUBLIC HOLIDAY!
1st oct = 11 more days to URS TRULY BDAY!
1st oct = ATTACHMENT GG TO END!

alrighty.
i am so freakingly excited.
cos blings = shopping!

few days ago i dig out my old spec.
old spec = black frame.
& i am loving it again.
old love ffound!
& i hae been wearing it everyday.

& tmr i am gonna wake up early.
go cut & dye+highlight my hair.
then go shop fer awhile.
& go work.

ohh ohh.
i chiong finish hanazakari no kimitachi in one day.
toma ikuta so cute can.
the whole drama is full of cute guys luh.
cant wait fer thursday thou.
i wanna watch my antm cycle 11.

& &
i gt back my pda liao.
woot. can on liao.
so damn happy.

& & &
its still raining.
i hope it will rain all night.
& i shall chiong hana kimi again.
lols.

& & & &
SORRY RONALD SEEEEEEEE!
(i hope he see this)

& & & & &
maybe tmr i shall go find sheena the idoit.
everytime say wanna find her but in the end never.

okayy, i am done.
outta here.

2.6 MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM!

i need to rant.

first.
i am so suay.
i took the 5.40 am bus today.
& i reach at a freaking time of 6.15am!
WTF. 45 mins earlier.

second.
i had to change cubicle!
chaoo bye bye.
i haven even finish my case study can!
i miss my cublicle de uncles & partner from nyp.
SHARON! IMU)):

third.
i was SOB fer ard 20 mins.
& i really thought i was gg to die.
so i went home.

fourth.
i called my mom to cook me porridge ard 10am.
i got home, fall asleep.
woke up at 12 plus.
& I HAVE TO EAT COLD FOOD.

fifth.
I HAVE TO REPLACE TODAY SHIFT ON WED & I AM WORKING ON WED TOO!
great.
i dont rmb puttting schedule on wed thou.

sixth.
MY FUCKING HAIR IS IRRITATING ME.
i am gonna cut it short.
like real short.

okayy.
thats all.

and to the certain someone which i doubt he will ever read my blog again.
the someone who i had love so much.
the someone that make me gave up 2 r/s.
the someone my parents ever approve of.
the someone i cried so much for.
the someone that i betrayed on my consious.
the someone that who doted so much on me.
the someone who love me but has commitment.
the someone i had to meet every single week.
the someone i spent most of my money on.

i know i hurt you.
i know i am a bitch to reject ur calls, to not reply ur msg & to not gg out with you.
yes, i am avoiding you.
i want to have an end.
a proper ending.

we both know what had happen & we are not gg to stop.
humans are greedy.
i am too.
i just wanna be that only woman i your life.
i want promises.
but you cant give me.

you had her.
& you cant let me go.
dont you think its selfish.
rather than letting her suffer the pain.
i rather be the one backing out.

you & her 3 years.
you & me 2 years plus.
many times i was hopeful.
i HOPE you break up with her.
but as the days goes by, i realise, its not gg to happen.

deep in my heart, i regretted making this decision.
budden i know this is the right choice.
maybe someday, when i know i get over you, i can face you again.

but for now, please forgive me for my selfishness.
cos i need to protect myself from getting hurt.

work on friday & saturday.
friday alone wor.
kns loh.
& i was having flu.

saturday morning work with veron.
she is the same siao cha bor as me luh!
had fun even thou i was having flu.

& i work with my dearest ah ma again during pm shift.
hahahahahahas.
when she just came & saw us(me&veron) watching hana yori dango, she scream luh.
& we scream too.
lols.
i cant stand kenneth's face.
he was like -.-''

& we went to watch movie after work again!
the house bunny.
nice wor.
lols.
& ah ma treat me starbuck coffee cheesecake loh.
as my bday present.
loves!

okok.
gg off too sleep.
4 MORE SHIT CLEANING DAYS.
:D

i get to have the chance to sit the ride alone.
it was my last day ride toooo.
i love the beautiful structure.
so breath taking.
i usually spend 3/4 of the ride looking at it.
:D

you know.
i rally feel quite crappy this week.

& i am sure is this certain grp of people who make me feel this way.
sometimes i feel like giving up on everything.
pretty much nothing to hold me on.
no motivation to live.

attachment is a drag.
i drag myself to nuh.
drag myself back home.
drag myself to bath.

i have come to a point of crying myself to sleep everynight.
maybe this is bad.
budden i have been thru worst.

i got alot of feelings pent up in me.
& i still cant find a way to let out.
i wanna curse & swear.
i wanna find me.

its really unfair to say that we are lazy etc.

we reached the ward 7am.
take report until 7.30am.
bring patients fer bathing & sponging till 8am.
record I/O charts & make bed & feed patients till 9am.
follow doctors round till 10am.

& WE DESERVE OUR 1 HR BREAK!
come back 11am do parameters.
& do hypocounts till 12noon.
after that feed & record I/O again.

DO YOU KNOW THAT ALL THIS STUFFS ARE FER YRS ONE!
I STILL HAVE MORE FUCKING SKILLS TO SIGN.
injections, IV, dressings, ECG, catheterisation
to add on, CI giving hmw EVERYDAY.
and case presentation on thursday.
& WE NEED TO TAKE ONE CASE!

fer the past whole week, i have being helping u lazy AN's to do ur job.
& I DIDNT COMPLAIN.
& I WAS TAKING CASE.
& I BLARDY STILL NEED TO HELP U DO PARAMETERS,TURNING, CHANGING.
& WTF ARE U DOING?

just because today, i didnt help.
YOU FUCKING GO COMPLAIN TO SN & CI.
the case i was taking was hard enuff already & you expect me to help you?
HELLO, I AM A STUDENT NURSE.
& DONT FUCKING TELL ME I DOES NOT NEED TO GO FER 1HR BREAK.
WHEN U URSELF WITH NOTHING TO DO, UR JOB IS TO ANS CALLBELL ETC.
NOT SLACKING INSIDE THE STAFF LOUNGE ENJOYING AIRCON.

yes, i came here to learn. so i fucking only take $10/day to do shit jobs.
how to learn when all i do is parameter,changing & turning.
& thanks fer pushing all blames to student nurses.

i am feel so sick & tired of all this.
& I AM STILL A STUDENT & I KENNA BACKSTAB BY AN.

& because we are emo kia.
blah. its raining.

i hope the rain last till morning & noon.

so the ward will be less stuffy & much more cooling.
beginning to get use to it.

& beginning to accept it.
9 more days to go.

outta here.

sorry for not updating.
my life is bored nowadays.

even thou attachment started, i still meet the guys everyday.
& my ling ah ling too!
had lunch.dinner with her almost everday.

met seetoh & mark on wed fer mama mia.
& omg luh! the show is nicey.
love the songs.
& had late dinner with keny.
he came down to find us after work.

was walking to bus stop & stopping at the traffic light when we heard a loud bang.
an audi bang into the volkswagen.
both woman driver!
i damn shock can.
& the woman in volkswagen look unwell.
so i kinda asked her a few simple yet important qns.
thank god she is ok.
budden i feel heart pain fer her car.
white volkswagen beetle wor.

& that day i was stuck in the lift can!
it was stuck btw 4th &5th floor.
kns luh! so scary & waste my time cos its break time.
budden i was kinda excited cos first time. lols.
and there was 6 other people fighting O2 with me.
damn stuffy.

thurs!
met up with the guys again fer diaster movie.
frankly, its a diaster.
& bus homed.

fri!
met up with keny & mark.
went popeye @ flyer fer supper.
& home.
had a super great time chatting.
lols.

okayy.
outta here.
bored~

i am speechless.

& i hate attachment.

& i love my new timetable. no school on tues & fri.

& i am gonna work extra hard to pass this attachment.

& I AM HAVING SAME SHIFT AS SHEENA,YIXUAN,WENLING.

& same shift as xueling & cecilia.

& i cant wait fer school to start.

& i cant wait fer 1st oct(pay days!)

& i might be having 2 chalet 0.0

& my dumb pda cant even on.

& i hate to squeeze in 963 )):

& i am so sleepy, i am talking nonsense now.

outta here.

xoxo.

& i never thought i would say this.
budden i am quiting flyer.
& this sat will be the last day.

i think its fate.
sat is the most part timer working days.

seriously, i dont feel like quitting.
budden i dont really enjoy the work anymore.
the people is the ones who keep me going.

budden even yanling is leaving & wendy already left.

glassdoor!
forever & ever "sorry sir/mdm, you need to validate the tix"
"please hold on to your own tix"
"no food/drink allow"
"turnstile, 2+1~"
& the most bouncer alike position.
rmb people hurling vulgarities at me.

x-ray!
the most peaceful job ever.
"camera,handphones&keys please"
yonghan's fav position.
paul's too.

turnstile!
ahem~ i know i shouldnt say this.
budden i didnt know there were such stupid people alive if wasnt fer this position.
main point= barcode,scan,redlight
cocktail glasses.
kind stressful & yet, one of my most fav position.

b4&after gr8at.
the differences btw this 2 place is huge!
b4 = slack like hell.
dont even know why i am there.
after= alot of scolding during peak period.

echo 2.
kinda like it. but only on peak periods.

echo 3&4.
forever & ever with people fighting over it.

delta 1&2
love it.
i love delta. & not to mention i almost fall b4.

welllll, i gotta miss alot of things.
continue next post!

outta here!

despite attachment starting next week, i found a new job.
meaning, i will take up 2 job during weekends.
& i will also be having attachment.

great.
i love the mess i am in.
anywayy, ANTM cycle 11 is love.
love all the juicy gossip parts.

& today is the love day.
cos i saw my jiemeiss.
not wendy thou!
& i called her 3 or 4 times.
but she didnt answered nor called back!
what happen?!

shall elaborate more.
had only 30 mins nap fer the whole night.
gotta catch some sleep now.

xoxo

alrighty.
haven been posting much ay.

my life is getting simpler everyday((:
woke up. eat. meet up with the boys. slack.

nothing much.
except that we bought the same brand of shoes.
-.-
we are the tigersssssss.
& mark's ownage! 172.50

read princess dairies & shopaholic series.
wow wow wow.

was super serious sick & couldnt talk.
i hate it.

k session on a random night with just the 2 of us.
((:

despite being sick/headachy, i finished a whole bag of ruffles ytd.

& i have work tmr.

alrighty, outta here.

xoxo

& wherever i go, with them, is bliss((:
i will miss wendy alot alot when she go fer her attachment at MALDIVES!

& i miss them now)):

alrighty. remember my ''date'' 3 days ago?
finally i got the photos.
this is his chicken mushroom with soft shell crabs & chawanmushi.
pretty awesome.
i love the crabs & chawanmushi.

this is my jap curry with tempura set.
i absolutely love jap curry.
and their tempura is so-so.

i'm raw!

i made him do this with me.
:p
he say he look ugly.
budden i think i look pretty good hur!

k lah! put ur zilian photo.
lols(:

tmr tmr tmr.
yay.

xoxo

weeee~
they are coming back soon.
& they bought something fer me.
thanks alot.

cant wait fer them to come back.
my life is so dull this 2 days.
work & home-ed.

anywayy, attachment starting soon.
& i dread it.
KNS.

budden can anytime date xueling fer lunch/dinner.
outta here to watch labixiaoxin(:

xoxo

& ytd.
i went ''pa tor'' with markie.
hahahahas.

it was totally unplanned.
well, we went ichiban sushi.
stuffed ourselves.
played with the orange skin.
& i statisfied my cravings.

bus-ed down to cine to buy his volta shirt.
and went heeren!
kns.
i spent 52 bucks buying tees.
& one is the same as his.
we gg to wear on thurs.
((:

& i bought a 3/4 jeans.
& a flesh imp blouse.

bus-ed home.
i changed and we cabbed back to his hse.
had supper etc.
watch movie & cried-.-''

reached home ard 6 this morning.
anywayy, went picnic with yanling&wendy.
shall upload photos soon.

xoxo