so after work ytd, i went home.
&&& wait for moo2 to come fetch me then down to NTU to fetch karine.

on the way there, i keep shouting at random cyclist.
& moo2 say i am chao ah lian in disguise. LOL.
but karine sama sama as me loh!

head down to tea party & shuyan joined us shortly.
had fun playing taboo.
laugh until i feel like crying.

then we went marina barrage! damn fun also. talking under the stars.
making plans for the future.
after that we send karine & shuyan home.
& moo2 drop by mac on the way to let me buy shaker fries.
shiokness. but i read home ard 4am. crazy! everyone live so far from each other)):

anywayy, i really had fun ytd.
damn glad to know these wonderful people in my life.
i am happy happy happy.

going out soon with xiaolili for l4d session and drink drank drunk!

xoxo

4 days.
didnt see you for 4 days.

not that i never tried it.
longest record was 8 days.
but the feeling suck.

miss those times in 63c.
when i can see you whenever i want.
one reason i miss 63c is because its the place i get to know you.

am i being silly?
actually i am very contented just by seeing you.
even if its only a few seconds.

maybe its still infatuation.
& maybe its a crush.
&&& it know its will not work.

i dont know what i want.
i asked you out.
you rejected.

i msn you.
you didnt reply.

i know what you meant.
but why are you still commenting on my fb.
i know it may mean nothing to you.
& maybe you are bored, thats why.

but to me, every lil comment from you mean alot to me.

but i dont wanna give up so easily.
so i am gonna try this one last time on sat.

xoxo

omgggggggg.
rmb jit?! the med school guy i met during yr 1 first SGH posting?!

HE IS A HO NOW &&& HE SAME BATCH AS LKC THEY ALL.
freak. freak freak.
hahahas. but its nice to talk to him again.
(: hahahas. the sg is so so so small.

anywayy, recovery room is fun! <3 waking the pt up.
tmr! O&G! happy happy.
kk. i am happy(:

<3 LKC.

xoxo

i officially announce that i hate OT.
totally hate it.
damn cold. &&& there is nothing to do except standing there like a statue!

i guess i miss 63c too much.
even thou sunday was my last day i went back ytd & today.
)): miss everyone.

went to had dinner with moomoo just now.
had fun again! bitching and gossiping!
hahahas.
going night cycling on fri night.
&&& he actually called lkc on bus just now loh!
madness. but he is going on call on friday.
too bad)):

ohoh! did i mention he msn me on sat night.
so damn happy((:

but... nvm(:
not going to give up.
i haven try my best!

alright.
going to sleep soon.
i am gonna wear 3 tees tmr!

xoxo

thank you 63c for making my prcp extra fun and extra special.

mummy anita.

thank you for being my preceptor.
& teaching me ton of things the past 3 mths.
thank you for nagging me like i'm your daughter.
thank you for everything.

shuyan
thank you for accompanying me to the polyclinic when i was too scared to go alone.
thank you for listening to me when i was down & encourage me.
thank you for saying that i am going to be a good nurse.
thank you for listening to my endless rant.

sumarni
will miss all the times we sang in the ward.
esp when we sponge patients.
& also thank you for always letting me sit at my fav place in the bus althou it cramp your legs.
i will miss you!

saiful
my fav dude in 63c.
thank you for making me smile whenever you know i am feeling down.
thank you for consoling me when i was feeling super down(:
cheer up dude!

jessica
thank you for the little card that you drew for me.
you are one of the best buddy i made in 63c.
will never forget you.
my fav OT.

melissa
thank you for the farewell gift.
you are also one of the best buddies i made in 63c.
thanks for all those sweets & drinks.
you are my fav PT.

jialin
you are one of the best female HO i ever know!
i am glad to know you for the last 2 weeks of my prcp.
my gossip & fa hua chi partner.
(: hope to work with you in the future when i am a SN!

rm15,16,17&18 peeps
thank you all for making my prcp extra fun and extra special.
although i know i am not good enough, but the criticisms make me stronger.
i own it to you guys.
love you all!

LKC
knowing you is one of the best things that happen during these 3 mths.
you were the motivation for me to work when i was too depressed to work.
whenever i see you, i feel loads better.
even if my whole day was f-ked up.
always hoping to catch a glimpse of you when you were in rm 11&12.
& even when you went over to 53c, i still wait for 1pm everyday when you will walk past 63c.
hoping you are HO4 when i was on pm or night shift.
thank you for still talking to me even when you know i like you.
63c is the place i know you.
i will never forget that.

junyang aka moomoo
thank you moomoo.
if i have to list out the whole list to thank you, it will be damn long.
but i am really glad jingxiang tell you that i say you are easy to bully.
if not, i will never get to know you.
those dinner trips. the wii outing. the breakfast trip. the gossip in starbuck trip.
& i know more will come. cos we are buddies (:

1 more mth. & i will grad.
i feel grown up suddenly.
& more mature. know how to take criticisms, gossips & backstabs in stride.

i am already crying. tell me how not to cry tmr.

sorry for not blogging!
night shift was awesome with mummy anita and marjin molina!(love the molina part)

second night.

met up with hanisah again for smoking break :x
listen to horror stories in wd 53c & 63c creeps me out.
freakish!

and then it happened.
was twitter-ing and i saw that he had an acc & i happily followed him.
WITHOUT REALIZING MY USERNAME WAS LKCISLOVE.

freak!
anywayy, so he know.
mummy say its fate that he had to know it that way.
& i guess so.
nothing i can do.

anywayy, head home and pig out totally.

last night.

had fun. did the same thing on second night.

anywayy, decided to go polyclinic to get my result and its negative!
wooohoooo~
so anywayy, i am referred to SGH's RNI.
lol. i should had ask the consultant for advice that time he came 63c.
save on my consultation fee man.

and home to sleep.
slept from 10am to 10pm.
fb awhile and head back to bed.

woke up 3plus this afternoon.
LOL.
i swear i am not a swine!
but i am so tired lah.

went to meet moomoo for dinner.
&&& he insisted me to announce that i was the one who ask him.
LOL. he dont want pple to think he is cheating on his gf.
... anywayy, li wah jie jie also know i like lkc. so does it matter?!

had fun laughing!
i totally LOL super loud abt the b/l joke.

in mo's room.
nurse: eh, dr kao, pt has rashes.
dr kao: (grab b/l, without seeing pt) refer derm!
*cue laughters*

aiyah. i doubt you guys will understand the joke.
but its damn funny abt the way DIM team work.
everything also refer B/L. slackish!

went kinokuniya.
and saw this pictorial book of butterflies.
saw some absurd photos of butterflies that look like rugs.
and he goes like WHAT THE FREAKKKKK
cant stand him.
dont understand why people will say he is quiet when he is totally NOT.

alright.
working tmr!
cant wait. pm shift with mummy is <3
hope to see him & hope that shuyan is working!

xoxo

night shift is fun as usual.
hanisah love is also on duty today!
anywayy, had mac delivery. SHIOK-NESS!

moomoo came over and find me ard 5 plus.
decided to have breakfast tgt.
by 7 am i was high.
singing ABBA's song aloud make me feel old.

anywayy, had a change of plan and he sent me home to bath & change then down to adam's road for breakie.
&&& went to his hse!
XBOX L4D!

ooooooh.
i love his doggie can.
golden retriever. damn cute!

anywayy, i sucks at xbox l4d.
but you can jio me for PC l4d.

i am talking nonsense already.
going bed now!
hope HO4 is someone nice & fun.
&&& I WANNA SLEEP NOW!

am super moody now.
)):

just feel like crying & whining.
i dont like to share.
i dont like to share LKC, moo moo, jessica & melissa.

no mood to blog.

are you on-call today?
if yes, have a good call.
imy.

xoxo

went dinner with moomoo.
omfggggggg.
waited him for almost 2 hrs can.
happen the last time i met jingxiang for dinner also.

anywayy, i was quite pissed off then i went off.
almost took bus and went home but he called me and in the end we went cheenatown.
had KFC!

and went to the studio he is helping.
boring stuff lah. i fell asleep & even drool.
LOL.

ohya!
while waiting for him, i went to 64!
cooool. never see the physio gym before.
thank melissa for bringing me!
anywayy, wanted to meet up with jessica but she didnt on her phone.
so in the end we just sat there and chatted for ard half an hr.

&&& jialin know lah!
she read my blog.
now i am scared he actually read my blog too )):

maybe. he is avoiding me?
aiyah. dont think too much.

k. am going to continue my drama.
:)

xoxo

my mood swing is terrible nowadays.

been crying almost everyday ever since i got back to work.
no matter what i do, its never good enough for them.
sick and tired of all this crap.

did RU on myself this morning.
result is still the same.
i dont have the courage to go back and check the results.

i miss junyang, jessica and him badly.
i need them back in the ward for motivation.
they are the people who make it easier for me to bear with all this shits.

went to 53C to try my luck today.
& i really saw him.
&& he talked to me.
(:

am i really fit for this job.
its straining on my physical and mental health.

but no matter what, i will still try my best.
cos i know this is what i love doing.

xoxo

went for check up early in the morning.
bloods and urine taken. now waiting for result.
but. i got protein in urine.
great, just great.
but thank you shuyan for accompanying me. i really appreciate it.

anywayy, homed and slept.
moo moo and sue came ard 4 plus.
movie for awhile & we went out to clementi for sushi.

and back to my home for Wii.
fun fun fun! laugh until i almost die.

anywayy, thanks moo moo.
and alot of other pple who was worrying for me.
i will try not to think too much till the result is out.

xoxo

i suspect i got SLE.

signs & symptoms.
-swelling joints.
this is always there ever since young. & i didnt pay much attention. & usually in the morning with diff joints. and get better after 2 hrs. my feet is both swelling now. and totally look like swine feet.

- rashes.
i have been developing rashes this few months. but i really thought i got sensitive skins. the rashes appear in my legs and armpit and abdominal area.

- fatigue.
i cant sleep enough nowadays. i spent all my off days in bed.

maybe. maybe. i got SLE.

i should just die.

today is jessica last day.
yet i am at home.
sick.

jessica.
i will miss you alot )):
cries*

anywayy, i should most prob just give up on lkc already right?
tell me yes!

am going to see doc soon.
)):

I HATE to see DOCTORS )):

omfg.

the mo's room is freaking stinky and dirty lah.

my body is itching all over and i barely sat here for 10 mins!

gross!

and mask + gloves everywhere.

dirty to the maximum.

anywayy, just in case you are wondering why am i still here.

i am stuck in the hospital.

cos of end-prcp assessment.

i am so gonna get a good grade for tmr.

if not i will cry and sob and cry and sob.

thank god shuyan is the in charge today.

<3

ok. am going out now.

i cant stand it.

i think there is bugs everywhere.

gross!

oohoh. had dinner with moomoo

:D

see ya cm! and maybe LKC too <3

xoxo