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Thursday, July 20, 2006
THIS ENTRY IS DECIATED TO MY BEST FRENS.... PHINE XUELING LILING HANLEE FENGLING CECILIA YIXIN NELSON and JINGWEI...When I was in Sec1, I was a very unpopular gal. I was shunned by everyone. Even my best frens shunned me. But i carried on with life till Sec2. I got a drama programme and i'm teamed with me 'ex' best fren. Initially, we were all pai seh and blah blah blah. But we soon go back to the same and i really thanks that programme cuz it bring me back all my frens. Sec 2 is really a very happy years and all. We used to gg to find HANLEE and LILING as they were sitting behind. So a group of gals will usually crowd over dere and tok tok lo. It usually have ME, PHINE,XUELING,CECILIA, and FENGLING. YIXIN haven really joined us at dat time. We will usually hang out at the plaza after sch. That how i pass my life in sec2. With tears and joys. Reaching Sec3. I was very bad in studies and dint make it to the same class with any of them. But our friendship continue to stay strong. We had recess tgt. Hang out tgt. Everything tgt. Especially me and PHINE. We will walk to sch tgt. Go church tgt. And even at that time we use to gossip abt guys. And helping me to advoid her class of guys(long long story). Towards the ending of Sec3. We were super close. She had fall in love with a guy(shall remained un-named) and i had too. Not the same guy la. But both guys we fall in love happen to be in the same group. Due to blindness of love we will do everything to see them. Even sneaking out 2am in the night and take cabs down to Pasir Ris. We will see each other everyday. Almost la. And reaching Chirstmas, she will sneak to my house and we will sew tgt.(i hope u guys still have the keychains we sewed!) We will sneak to 7-11 and being lock out by my dad. She comfort me when my mom went to Thailand for 5 days. (i'm a mommy gal) And dat was how we spent our Sec3 lifes. In Sec4. The most important year ofour life. The year we are suppose to take o'levels. But o level didnt seperate us. We study tgt. Although i was mostly toking. She listen and study. We studied very hard. And we taught LILING physics. And we get to know NELSON and JINGWEI. (I'll save that for later) After our o level we bonded even more. We got the same jobs and went to work tgt. get scolded tgt. And shopping tgt. It was dat time when we really got closed to NELSON and JINGWEI. We will hang out tgt. Initially everyone was shy and all. But after dat. All da evil faces came out. Haha. To my surprise, even XUELING soon joked with them too. First time. And we had conference calls everynight. Soon. PHINE went to hongkong. Icrng dat day. Cuz it was da first time i'm not gg to see for such a long period of time. And during dat time i really cant coped. Cuz everytime i got problem i will find her. But when she returned i found that we had distant. alot too. But i tried my best to bring back da lost time. In my heart she had always been my best fren. Nothing will change dat. She was da one who encourage me when i was giving up on my studies. Be there when i need Someone. But. I had disappointed her. She had drop out of sch and i now then found out. I'm not there when she need someone. I had been selfish. Caring only myself and i dint contact them. I realy loved them. Jingwei now is facing depression. Nelson with his studies. Liling is not gd. Everyone seem to be having their problems. But i didnt ask. I didnt cared. And now i'm trully ashamed of myself. I really wished to go back to the times when we haven start sch. When we went Jingwei hse. Had movie marthon. Play cocordile.Everything. Will u all forgive me? For my selfishness. Issit too late?