i need to rant.

first.
i am so suay.
i took the 5.40 am bus today.
& i reach at a freaking time of 6.15am!
WTF. 45 mins earlier.

second.
i had to change cubicle!
chaoo bye bye.
i haven even finish my case study can!
i miss my cublicle de uncles & partner from nyp.
SHARON! IMU)):

third.
i was SOB fer ard 20 mins.
& i really thought i was gg to die.
so i went home.

fourth.
i called my mom to cook me porridge ard 10am.
i got home, fall asleep.
woke up at 12 plus.
& I HAVE TO EAT COLD FOOD.

fifth.
I HAVE TO REPLACE TODAY SHIFT ON WED & I AM WORKING ON WED TOO!
great.
i dont rmb puttting schedule on wed thou.

sixth.
MY FUCKING HAIR IS IRRITATING ME.
i am gonna cut it short.
like real short.

okayy.
thats all.

and to the certain someone which i doubt he will ever read my blog again.
the someone who i had love so much.
the someone that make me gave up 2 r/s.
the someone my parents ever approve of.
the someone i cried so much for.
the someone that i betrayed on my consious.
the someone that who doted so much on me.
the someone who love me but has commitment.
the someone i had to meet every single week.
the someone i spent most of my money on.

i know i hurt you.
i know i am a bitch to reject ur calls, to not reply ur msg & to not gg out with you.
yes, i am avoiding you.
i want to have an end.
a proper ending.

we both know what had happen & we are not gg to stop.
humans are greedy.
i am too.
i just wanna be that only woman i your life.
i want promises.
but you cant give me.

you had her.
& you cant let me go.
dont you think its selfish.
rather than letting her suffer the pain.
i rather be the one backing out.

you & her 3 years.
you & me 2 years plus.
many times i was hopeful.
i HOPE you break up with her.
but as the days goes by, i realise, its not gg to happen.

deep in my heart, i regretted making this decision.
budden i know this is the right choice.
maybe someday, when i know i get over you, i can face you again.

but for now, please forgive me for my selfishness.
cos i need to protect myself from getting hurt.