changed&reformed
Thursday, October 09, 2008
its gonna be my birthday in 3 days time.
kinda not looking forward to it.
birthday seem to be getting meaningless each year.
last year bday, i was working till 10plus at expo.
& cos its too late to get a cake, i got myself a muffin from 7-11.
budden i really do enjoyed the one&only celebration this yr.
at least i got a cake. with candle.
the one with yanling&wendy&ronald&awdy.
i had decided to work on sat.
i know seetoh&gang maybe disappointed with this decision.
budden i dont wanna make a fuss fer my bday.
nothing special & important to celebrate.
& i will be staying at home on 12oct.
might be celebrating with parents thou.
afterall, when is the last time i really sit down & had a good chat with them.
i made a wish, on monday, with the candle on the ice-cream cake.
i just wanna faster finish my dip & go aust.
i wanna leave this country asap.
i wanna throw everything away & really be myself.
the times i hold back my tears cos i dont wanna be called a crybaby.
the times i hold back my screams&shouts cos i dont wanna be called a crazy woman.
the times i hold back my laughters cos i dont wanna be called tomboyish.
everything everyone is making me suffocated.
i just wanna leave.
