unhappiness
Saturday, January 10, 2009
sorry to tou cloudie & little.
sigh.
sucha a bitch i am.
am really in a very bad mood these few days.
& i dont know why.
issit because of the fact that i know you block me in msn?
i promised myself try not to think abt you.
& i really did. at least i didnt dream of you anymore.
you are gone. gone from my life. i dont need you to survive.
but every now and then, everything surrounding me will bring back memories.
& i hate it.
i hate it when i sit on the bus remembering your calls & smses.
i hate it when i go bunk remembering you teaching me dota.
i hate it when i go to the toilet remembering you wiping away my tears.
i hate it when i go evo remembering all our times over there.
i hate it when i walk alone from ps to cine remembering the day i scold you fuck you, & i really meant it.
i hate it when i sleep on my bed remembering you slept on it before.
i hate it when i play beat up remembering the way you trained my techno party.
i hate it when i hear the reason playing along the street remembering it is your fav song.
last of all, i dont hate you.
but i hate myself for loving you.
i simply sucks to the core.
