offcially depressed
Saturday, April 18, 2009
i am crying hard right now as i am typing all this.
i miss my friendsssss.
i miss dota-ing till late night.
i miss hanging out with fun people or people who make me laugh.
prcp life sucks.
and i hate clubbing now, no more for me.
i dont wanna get drunk again not knowing what embrassing things i had done.
i am smoking more than ever.
i am stress. & its only first week.
13 more weeks to go.
i cant believe i miss everyone in my clique to the extend i miss even hao, lex etcetc
i wanna quit so badly.
not that the ward staffs is not treating me well.
just dat i miss talking to everyone i know. i hate losing contacts.
i am confused.
i dont know wad i am talking now.
anywayy, i am taking mc tmr cos my back still hurting me lots even thou i fall like last sat?
the doctors in my ward is worried that i had a few airline or hairline crack in my tailbone.
GREAT. ITS ALL I NEED NOW.
BRING ALL THESE FUCKING TRAUMA TO MY LIFE.
I NEED THEM MORE TO MAKE MY LIFE MORE FUCKING EXCITING ISNT IT?
i am getting sick in my mind.
i lead guys on. & i played with them.
i am sorry don & rafi.
i had told you guys i dont wanna be attached.
dont msged me or called me every 1 hr or so.
i dont deserve it.
life is nothing but a dream.
how true. i wished i can sleep and dont wake up anymore.
i am 19 and half. & i had enough of life.
