from watching in a distance.
to adding him in fb.
to having lunch with him.
to commenting status in each other fb.
to chatting in fb's chat.
to talking in person.

i am officially contented.
(:

he talked to me.
twice today! & both times he talked to me first.
cos i am simply toooooo hum. (like what moo moo say)
&&& he smiled at me.

how amazing these small lil things can make me happy for the whole day even thou it was crappy.

tmr is the last day.

no more walking purposely up and down the ward just to look at him.
no more looking ard anxiously during report taking in the morning to wait for his arrival.
no more wishing i have endo pt just so he will come for rounds.
no more walking to the disposable rm every 5 mins or so if he is in the mo rm.
no more motivation for work.
no more poking moomoo & screaming when he walked past our cubicles.
no more grinning like a fool in bus cos i know i will see him today.

my world is sinking.
sinking into darkness again.

life sucks.